cObWeBbEd-TaZy

2008-08-11T20:20:00.000-07:00

dear me, i din kno tis blogger was linked to my google account!
hu lalala...

2007-08-25T09:36:00.000-07:00

DOOMED DOOMED=(
so doomed la..maths is on mon.
examm! why nt studying???
stephanie lim minqiiiiiiii DO SUMTING, aniting!!
slap smack hit box scratch stab...

2007-08-23T07:39:00.000-07:00

I AM CRAVING FOR SAKAE SUSHIII....
craving craving craving.
n why why wont aniting taste nice to me??
wdv.
i dead for exam la
wdv
wdv la..
im sick and tired

2007-08-20T08:42:00.000-07:00

today i went hme so so late.
i tot my dad will kill me cos it's study break n exams are on fir onwards.
so dead la how la..
i haven even started on the subject yet.
walao. totally gt no damn mood la wdv.
i feel so restless n lerthagic evryday now.
for god knows wad reason.
im irritated lyk super easily nw.
especialli by sum1.
but wdv, im dying aniwae.
never behaved liddat b4 la..
whatever.
i feel annoyed, angry, restless, lonely.
but lyk whatever

2007-08-18T18:25:00.000-07:00

o mama meeya..
i jus came home. woke up at 6am.
chatted on fone wif val n char till 635.
supposingly jus a call to wake each oth up, ended up wif a chat.
lol
waited for 39 at 715 for so freaking long, din cumfor so long, realised tad 81 can stop at de place where i was meetin val, so ya.
meet oppo tpjc, den walked to tamp mart meet char.
ate porridge n noodle.
so super full.
den we went shop & save buy yakult.
it's addictive kkx.
ate n tok n ate agn haha.
abt 830 825 we left.
walked to flag cab.
no cab wanted to stop for char muaha!
val decided to go play de toy machine tingy, one which u had to insert coins den u trn the ting n a ball wif a toy drops out.
freak funny.
den a cab finally stopped for us.
val n i stopped at sum busstop, while char cont to yishun where her karate grading was.
GOOD LUCK!
n one ting, dey have to break tiles!
so so cool la!
really kkx, breaking tiles lei!!
SO AMUSING.
i oso wan break la.
den i reached hme at abt 9 plus am.
im so tired nw.
n the whole hse is awake.
so earli la wth.
shall i slp or watch tv.?
ill end up sleeping.
so lerthagic.
good morning world.

2007-08-13T09:58:00.000-07:00

im as gd as being in jail.
u get questioned lyk mad abt everyting.
u get forced to ans qns..
everyting u do mus b known to de police officer.
n de worst is, if u have an unreasonable officer, ur as good as dead.
being in jail, it's as gd as having no freedom.
okie, shall cont tml or sumday

2007-08-12T10:42:00.000-07:00

im a useless shit.
my whole life, all i eva did was, cause trouble.
aniwae.
im termed as the most childish person.
yes, im dumb, slow, childish, useless, and a veri bad person.
according to sum1 indirectly, i enjoy sacarsm, im happy being evil.
fine den.
nw my turn to speak.
i wish to die now.
aniwae i ought to.
cos im a bad person, i make ppl feel hurt, i dont tink abt their feelings.
ya, so i shud die first and fast.
so tad ppl will once again feel happiness and de society will b free of bad ppl lyk me.

2007-08-12T09:17:00.000-07:00

life's getting more screwed up.
actually, nt every part is screwed up, only sum parts.
ya it sucks, hu lyks a screwed up life la.
i feel lyk life can jus end now la, i'll feel relieved.
for real.
at tyms, i super felt tad i nv shud have gotten into tis kinda life.
makes me feel so horrid nw.
it's nobody's fault.
it"s jus tad our lifes are written in de journal to be tis way.
or, these cud be cause and effect.
becos of wad we gt ourselves into, we get these results.
feeling regretful wont help u to turn tym backwards.
tads for sure.
but to improve tings, one can start anew.
after falling to de bottom of de pit, de onli way is to work upwards, so as to see de daylight again.
sumtyms, i feel so so tired.
tings must be stopped, cos i nid a rest.
iF nt, i'll jus die.
right nw, i nid a heart rest.
right nw, i so so feel lyk digging my heart out n throwing it out to sea.
n let the right person pick it up again.
It's so so wounded, tad jus one more slash, it's as gd as stabbing it in de centre.
n it will nt pound ani more, it will b dead.
even thou my actions nw may b nt wad a stephanie wud do,
it's for the heart's own gd.
if nt, it'll b as gd as a dead-man walking.
lord help.
trust my words, i have never in my entire life, been tad harsh or mean to sum1.
mayb it was due to de CAUSE and EFFECT.
being lyk tis wud prob mean, ..my heart is slowing down, my life is shortening.
THE END.

2007-08-05T06:43:00.000-07:00

everything is getting screwed, i don deny.
even myself, in sch, im almost totally screwed.
have no idea how to save myself from doom.
my relationship is getting screwed oso.
everyting is my fault.
sumtyms, i rather just give up everything.
it's so tiring okie.
tired till i cant eva feel veri awake.
cos of all these shit happening, i realli find it difficult to be in a good mood at all tyms.
seriously, if i start flarin, the only way for me to chill is nt do stuff which will irritate me further.
sum ppl just don understand this simple sentence.
i feel tad going to sch is so sucky, cos i don find veri nice frens there, apart frm sum ppl in particular.
And that my studies are so lacking n sucky, that im on my way to giving up.
i feel so demorarised.
absolutely no mood to do aniting properly.
to me now, as long as i pass my tests, im satisfied.
as long as i attend lessons, whether i doze off during it anot, im satisfied.
as long as im on tym for classes, whether anot i doze off during it, im oso satisfied.
now, i realli have no more motivation to score or top in anything.
the fact that my fren's feeling depressed cos she lost sumting impt isnt making me feel ani better.
my fingers are tired but i have to blog these down cos i cant speak well and ant keep too much of these in myself if nt i'll just go bonkers.
m serious.
so low spirited nw.
i feel lyk shit oso.
cant do aniting well.
even lab tests are lyk shit.
i do nothing well.
but i realli hope that one day i can do well once agn.
currently no1 is able to make me feel better agn n giv me ani motivation to study hard alreadi.
i realli wish that i could have personal tutors to help me in my sch work.
i reali wish.
but how easi will it be to search for poly tutors??
life is lyk turning from bad to worst nw.
and im going to face a massive scolding frm maths teacher.
wonder how i'll react, cry infront of the class? too malu alreadi.
or flare at the teacher? bad idea.
i donkno.
my rxns are unpredictable nowadays.
life is equalli unpredictable everyday too.
lyk i tot today will be a fairly nice day, but it ended up bad. so bad that i lost my soul n became a corpse.
all i wish for now is a nice day.
i just nid sum respect to be given to me.

2007-08-03T10:34:00.000-07:00

im breaking into pieces for real.
im just crumbling slowly onto the grnd.
everyting seems sucky.
mayb it's just the way i see.
wad so eva.
im alreadi feeling moody abt sch, stress abt it cos evryting is so bad.
n tis extra ting has to participate in making me feel worst.
i have yet to apologise to my fone for throwing it on the flr out of anger.
it's all my fault. everyting.
from the beginning it was alreadi my fault.
difficult to xplain, cos it was way in the beginning.
wdv it is, i feel tad it's my fault.
so demoralised n depressed nowadays.
n im working to much less nw, so sucky.
gt nt much $ liao.
hw la, nid stuff oso cant get myself.
wdv, i shud jus slap myself for everyting tad has gone wrong

2007-07-30T10:29:00.000-07:00

shit it.
so pissed.
i nid to chill.
but seriously, u shud learn to understand.
wad i don lyk means i don lyk for real.
apparently ur nt de one feeling it oso.
if all these shit happen almost evryday, it's as gd as nt being together.
sucks.
so xian.
no choice mus blog to my heart's content.
if nt i'll tok to myself agn.
great, stomachache nw.
sucks
so tired. of everyting.
sch's so stressful.
everyting is trouble nw.
sucks.
evryting's so shitty nw.
my tests r gone cases.
so diff so mani tings to study.
cant utd aniting oso, wads de pt?!
wads de pt in attending lessons la.
i desperately nid a personal tutor.
sucks.
tummy so uncofrbe. sucks.

2007-07-28T09:55:00.000-07:00

sucks.
everyting seems to nt be going well at all.
im feeling horrible myself.
the feeling lyk as if ur hart was being ripped out of ur rip cage.
feeling so freaking xian too.
lyk absolutely no mood to do aniting, it's lyk have to drag myself to do aniting.
sucks.
feeling so disturbed too.
im so messy nw.
so messy till i changed.
i nid a period off.
to get myself to nt feel messy animore.
how long it'll take, i've no idea.
aft being wounded tym and agn, i guess it's difficult to be the same agn.
evryting has jus changed.
i jus feel lyk quiting everyting im doing.
sucks.
so depressing.
i feel so dead and heartless nw.
guess one day im officialli gonna b a dead walking fella.
wdv it is, im sure tym will solve sum problems, take away sum wounds, n return wad has changed to it's previous state.
living feels sucky.
my throat feels sucky too.
it's gone worst. big deal.
i tink it's betta to take my hart out frm me.
so tad i don have to feel pain and confusion.

2007-07-15T09:41:00.001-07:00

i am home frm work finally.
it's so late.
my parents are gonna kill me once again.
im gonna lose another life=(
toking to the wall seems betta den speaking to ppl, cos it's as gd as speaking to urself.
evryday seems never to be a nice day. it's lyk a storm cums on sum parts of the day.
sux sux sux.
tml there is sch.
i am pathetic.
cos ezlink card no $$ for bus n i oso hav no $$.
nw hw m i gonna buy my pliers tml??
no idea.
tads y im pathetic.
i cant afford to buy the tings i nid now..
feeling so depressed nw.
nt entirely abt wad i cant get, oso abt others tings.
my own prob. sux.
i nid sum1 to cheer me up. make me laugh!

2007-07-14T09:41:00.000-07:00

tad MF BB CB taxi driver.
kept kao bei-ing to me in his cab tad he 4got to on his meter, so was losing alotta $$.
his prob wad!!
hu ask him tok on the fone??
den still went a horribly terribly dreadful long way!?
wa lao so enous tad way la so fcuking much faster den the east coast park way.
my fares for both individualli lots of difference la!?
den tml i have no coins for bus cos ezlink card no $$. SUCKS.
den in his cab, he was lyk nvm went we reach jus give me wdv u can..
SAVE HIS BREATH! lyk i wud wan to give more den de meter says. at most if i gave xtra den keep de change.
but too bad i gave exact.
AND, i wan to DEMOLISH MY CONDO!
it's infested especially wif cockraches WTF.
tad sucks lyk shit la.
bloody hse of mine i so dislike going to toilets now. i dislyk every part of my hse nw.
i wan TO SHIFT HSE!
sum where new, convenient.
a new condo. it'll b de best.
gd facilities. less pests.
im lyk dreaming abt it nw.
o ya n more convenient, unlyk tis stoopid condo im in.
i don mind spendin bit more for de convenience la seriously!
oki, today i came home slightly earlier. 1230am?
i love MANGO, de discount nw up till 70%!!
ROCKS, but don kno lasting for hw long =( sure nt long la..
tings r lyk 20 plus oni or 30 plus...
cut down so much la!
jus bought a nw top costing $24 only. oki la huh...
shopping makes me relieve stress=)

2007-07-13T10:16:00.000-07:00

im home, finally, cos im xtremely tired.
even slept on de bus home n almost missed my stop..
my contacts are damn dry so blur..
glad tml's a wkend n no work tml..
can slp wake up late, lyk pig!
i nid slp desperately..everyday feel as thou sum1 boxed me on de eyes..
im so pissed cos everyday i get scolding frm here n there n everywher.
It sucks lyk fcuk shit.
no fcuking one bothers abt how i feel..
everyone only tinks of their tots only theirs n theirs..
tad sucks lyk shit..
i hate my fcuking life...
everyday is shit day.
everyday sucks.
i hate qurealling, i hate getting scolded, fcuking shit.
so annoyed i hate life.
i hate everyting.
i realli hope everyting becomes betta

2007-07-12T11:01:00.000-07:00

so damn screw up la..
nw i kena scolding frm lyk "evry1".
its sucks lyk fcuking shit.
obviously de person scolding feels gd la.
de person kena scolded feels lyk shit.
evryday is a fcuked up day tis wk.
im going to die again, a horrible death, which once happened b4.
tad obviously sucks.
life is so sickening, it sucks big tym.
i seriously hate everyday of my life nw.
life is xian, troubling, it sucks bcos it's steph tads here.
im damn tired everyday seriously cant concentrate at all during lessons.
my hw cant do at all cos i kno nth abt wad im learning.
im the suckiest bitch here..
fcuk everyting, screw everyting...
i so freaking wan to watch movies to release stress..i mean it
so damn frustrated nw

2007-07-11T01:58:00.000-07:00

3. PRODUCT TESTING AND CONCLUSION
3.1 Testing
The product was tested at this stage. To find out if this futuristic car device could withstand a large amount of water without getting faulty, my partner, accompanied with 4 other friends and myself, decided to splash pails of water on the same car at different periods of time of the day.
Firstly, we designed one sensor to only read and grant access to 6 of our thumb prints. Secondly, each of the 5 girls had 3pails of water prepared, while the 6th girl did the time counting and recording. Then, we carried out our first test by splashing pails of water at the sensor of the car one after another at a 60-second interval. After every splash, we would test the sensor by placing one of our thumbs onto the sensor to check if it still works well.

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
We like to take this opportunity to express our appreciation to the following people for their valuable contributions and assistance with our project.

TABLE OF CONTENTS
Abstract..............................................................i
Acknowledgements.............................................ii
Table of Contents................................................iii
List of Figures....................................................iv
List of Tables.....................................................v

1. Project Introduction
1.1 Background
1.2 Rationale for the Project
1.3 Objectives of the Project
1.4 Scope of the Project

2. Product Description
2.1 Introduction
2.2 Physical Description
2.3 Process Description
2.2.1 How it Works
2.2.2 How to Use the Product

3. Product Testing and Conclusion
3.1 Testing
3.2 Conclusion
3.3 Recommendations

References
Appendices
Appendix A:
Appendix B:

2007-07-08T10:27:00.000-07:00

ytd was val's birthday!
kk she had cake n presents..
yea, cool.
nw's lyk 130am
ytd i worked frm 3-11.
was nt bz at all for a sunday.
sian.
so tired n bored today lorx.
tml hav sch n lab test
ahhhhhh!?
damn sian.
o man mum replaced my plastic cups wif glass ones!
m gosh evryting so breakable nw..
kkx im damn tired

2007-07-02T05:42:00.000-07:00

nw m in xy's hse.
im uber bored.
shall take my chance nw to blog sumting, cos my freaking bloody keyboard's spoilt my me.
im a destroyer la.
jus a bit of water n de whole it went poooof!
hope tml i can realli go buy a new keyboard.
mus pass up project on thurs, hai.
hav a colarge tad i intend to do but donkno if i will realli do it.
nt being able to tok online sucks, cos keyboard's spoilt.
tml's dfund lab test, im so dead.
all my lab sucks la, so demoralising.
im so tired evryday tad i don listen during class at all, i merely copy frm lecturers.
die sia.
everydY i look forward to sch end, nv look forward to payin attention in classes.
blah blah.
im a walking zombie.
im scared of my labturers.
tads so random but ya.
i shud migrate to heaven n work as an angel, sounds gd.
done for now, my fingers are tired

2007-06-30T11:16:00.000-07:00

i dislyk myself lyk shit.
i have no idea wad's dragging me down..
everyting is screwed up..

2007-06-30T09:08:00.000-07:00

today i worked 6-11.
did floor.
was SL, STEPHANIE LIM, ha.
wasn veri bz, well, de ppl din fill de entire resturant unlyk friday.
i wished sum1 cud giv me a free $1000, cos i so need to get stuff, for myself n fren too.
i hav lyk absolutely no ability to do such nw, cos im broke.
feeling demoralized cos me cant do stuff for my fren or wdv.
sigh..
im hopeless in terms of doing stuff for ppl to make dem happy n stuff.
blabla..
hopeless child, hopeless gal.
my ear's swollen again, boooo.

2007-06-25T10:08:00.000-07:00

there's lyk a typhoon outside my place..
uber scary man.
it's damn cold oso. brr
rainy day makes ppl solemn..
jus as de same tym, sumting cropped up.
the sky's crying...
see, de future cant b absolutely predicted corretly.
o well, will c how it goes.
its lyk 130 am.
today was damn tired n all, lyk zombie la.
i hope de rain stops by tml morning if nt will hav big prob going sch..
shucks.
crappified.
sian.
sleepy, tired, drained...
YAWN

2007-06-22T11:27:00.000-07:00

ya i suck, fine.
im de suckiest gal ever.
how depressing.
how demoralizing.
sad=(

2007-06-21T07:58:00.000-07:00

o "great", so it's my fault again.
nvm la, everyting seems to b my fault.
nth nv seems to b my fault.
wdv la.
im a gd for nth shit hu deserves nth.
i kno nth cos m a fcuking airhead.
yes yes i kno all.

2007-06-15T06:59:00.000-07:00

oh brother, im so bored now.
but least im home earli today.
im quite xian of going out oso...
i oni feel lyk sleeping, cos im a PIG!
i've gotta craving!
actualli nothing much, it goes off quickly.
blaaahhh.
i had sotong balls, sotong stick and crap stick for dinner.
i ought to go on a diet.
but i highly doubt i will.
cos i kno i wont.
cos im a PIG.

2007-06-09T10:51:00.000-07:00

BORED I M SO FREAKING BORED.
i have just became a no life at all freak.
now is holidays yippeee!
i hate sch i dislike studying for now.
hmm, im so freaking tired too...
im broke again muaha...
still gotta buy tad dumb toolbox=(
53 dollars la! so freaking Ex!
working at pasta fresca is so xian oso..
i donkno how sum ppl can feel so involved n into it...
compared to last tym, working at pasta now is so a different feeling.
It seems totalli no fun now at all.
donkno why but i jus feel lyk tis most of the tym..
being unnoticed is oso another ting..
might as well nt be there right. wad's the point.
it's lyk being an extra person.
well, it's not tad i wanna tink tis way, it happened to be tis way tad's y i tot tis way.
so crappified.
i jus observe wad's happening n i kno.
i needn say much of aniting, mayb jus say few sentences or asks a few qns n i will kno.
POUTS.

2007-05-18T04:04:00.000-07:00

fcuk shit la, i dropped or lost my ezlink card donkno la.
so fcuking annoying fcuk la.
damn fcuking shit la fcuk it la.

2007-05-17T09:48:00.000-07:00

man, im uber tired.
Sch was so long todae, so freakin xian, had 2 tests.
Aft sch, went airport den B.T vist adrian n ate dere.
Had sum dares n nw feeling up side down.
But for $ lolx.
Took a long ride frm one end of s'pore to bedok.
Cabbed hme frm val's hse.
Reached hme 12 plus, oki la..
im so freaking tired n sleepy, tml lecture n lab cfm doze off.
Im gonna drop dead alreadi.
Yuck Yuck, de feeling sucks.
Xian, tml night supposed 2 go vivo, end up cant. Sigh.

2007-05-16T10:36:00.000-07:00

oh man, m so tired now.
Had dfund test today, it was chim.
Sch ended early, hooray, bud nt 4 tml.
Till 4pm. sigh.
Aft sch, went to east pt den airport.
Shir n i took abt 30mins to invent! yippee man.
Hope tml i kno n m able to write properly for de tests.
Crap, 2 tests tml.
Shit dem, so tired man..
Met xy oso.
Went to drink a little den went back.
Nice place dere.
whee.
xyxyxyxy.

2007-05-13T10:18:00.000-07:00

so freaking crowded today.
Apparently was 1 hr late for work, cos fel n i walked in marina sq. till we 4gotten de tym..
Was too occupied.
aiya, donkno wads wrong wif blogger, cant chnge color, cant chnge size..sigh.
Damn tired n shit feelings, so freakin tired evryday.
i wan2 cry alreadi la, no bud cannot, cos it will mean soft heartening.
bud 4 nuts, i nv intended ani cheating or lying la...
It jus seemed lyk it, bud it wasn..oh 4getit.
i'll jus face de walls n decompose.

2007-05-12T11:04:00.000-07:00

stab me..
The best way to get rid of de pain...
Were supposed to catch a play nxt wed.
Oh well.
im de worst fella nw,shudn hav done so at all.
Nothing more to say.

2007-05-11T21:54:00.000-07:00

i screwed stuff up din i...
master screwer of everyting..
it jus ended...nth to say
m prob being hated...once in a life tym stuff..
Feeling horrible for wad happened, i cant do aniting nw oso..
the heart sucks now...it's as gd as i stabbed myself..
The tap has realli spoilt tis tym.
Stab me.

2007-04-29T10:53:00.000-07:00

i miss u so freaking much...
bud wad can i do la?

2007-04-21T10:53:00.000-07:00

m gonna reallli transfer course, heck de rest..
nervous sia...
giv me sum bravery man,
i freaking need alot now...
oh man, wad if i don accepted..=S
will be freaking depressed, as i m now alreadi..
so rtd...
giv me strength, giv me courage, intelligence.. to face my difficulties...
chicken sai la..=X

2007-04-20T09:27:00.000-07:00

oh man, m so sad la...
so much for being in a dilema of which choice shud i put as 1st one..
i so regret BMS la, shud hav put tad engineering course as 1st one..
variaty much wider, schedule not too packed oso..
starting tym of lessons oso not too guo fen...
freaking depressed...
so now im considering of transfering course..
bud donkno if it's wise...=(
how how how?
n i donkno wad cca to join..
mayb life saving, it's cool lei..
damn shit depressed la...

2007-04-18T09:49:00.000-07:00

rahh, went pasta fresca n waited for val, bud found char..
sabin came back!! to visit la...
Tot he went back to nepal alreadi man..
woohoo, misses him...
cos i came frm de back door so had 2 walk thru de kitchen, tads how i saw him..
oh well..
we were hungry! den dere was one wrong order,,gosh, which was pizza capriciosa..
eww, it stinks!
so pathetic, had to slowly pick de artichokes n black olives n mushrooms out..
it was lyk surgeon stephanie lim in operation! so kuku lorx...
the pizza was lyk yuck, bud still ate it..
den din finish, threw it..
den val ordered risotto di mare n lasa..
more food!
oh man, ilove mussels m squids=)
bud de lasa was soo cheesy..
dao wei kou today lorx.
den we started dancing in de vip room cos we all learnt a dance in tp orientation...
de dance rocks!
haha, val had a tool box, cos she tot tad frm engineering sch ma, so nid to bring tool box!
wakakaka, kkx jkjk la!
cos she had to buy it frm her sch lorx, so freaking funny..
den we used her screw driver to loosen sum screws in de vip rm!
freaking funny!
den siang kept coming in2 de vip rm tok wif us.. fun
n i realised tad salvo's nephew was tad hot guy in siglap kitchen toking 2 de chefs tad wkend!
he's so freaking hot, bud heared tad he's dao..oh well..
sum hot guys are jus liddat=S...proud n arrogant=(
wdv...
arhh. my gosh tml at work i may b bored to death...
cos ray off, n 2 nice to play wif chefs r off, oh man..
im gonna be freaking lonely n bored,SHIT...
SUCKSS MAN...

2007-04-12T09:30:00.000-07:00

oh man, we're so cheeky!
few days back, we "stole" a whole layer of parma ham=)
and 2 choc mouuse frm de freezer, n a whole bunch of rucola!!
OH MAN, so funnnyy...
so freaking funnyy...
den today, Den n i jus took choc mouuse=)
wanted to take tirumisu oso, bud no more le..
chef haven made a new tray yet...=(
haha, den Den wanted 2 take away his leftova pizza vege,
so we sneakily took aluminiun foil n cheese n chilli flakes, oh man, freaking funny!
oh, but i tink i kena ccaptured by de camera when searchin 4 de tiramisu..
hu cares la!, haha, it's so fun...tis wk's lyk de "last wk" evryone can c each other...
so sad=(oh man, den work will b lyk boring alreadi??...
msn is so annoying, i so cant go online...
oh, n taimur made me sweep de soapy water 4 him when washing de kitchen, so wdv can??
4 few sec, i was demoted to a sweeper=X
bud he made a chikin foldover wif vege inside too la..
soo nice 2 makan la=)
ytd n todae were "kinda fun"

2007-04-01T09:42:00.000-07:00

m soo tired...
bud i din mind it=)
cos it was worth it...
oh well..im freakin full..!
frm de italian rojak jus now...
my gosh=S
tml im off!
how boring...going2 decompose at home agn??
sigh..
i got quite a few bruises lolx, frm "banging" evrywhere...
ouch ouch hmmph...

2007-03-29T10:49:00.000-07:00

val's in perth now...
enjoy aussie!
hmm, work was fine today..
thou de boredom, dere were frens arnd!, so stil oki=)
did make a mistake, n i felt horrible=S
oh man, tad feeling sucks, bud lucky 4 me..
uncle ricky cud stil make de sandwich, n de customers,..well, weren mad at me i supposed..
did apologize alot thou...
oh well, lesson learnt..=/
wdv, we ended work late..went home late...
i so ought to borrow de hse key lorx..
it's so annoyin 2 get blamed 4 makin ppl stay up 2 wait 4 me...
it's lyk indrectly puttin de blame on me, tryin 2 make me feel horribly guilty...
wadTheShit!?
hmm, fel's a real funnei person=D
stayed ova night at her place, cos it was too late 2 go home..
got nagged at n all as usual frm ppl in my hse...haix=X
bud it was fun at her place=)
watched quite a few movies, yea n MartinMystery!
we ate junk food lyk kanehs too..
supposingly, we bought mani snacks for 4 persons,..BUT
char's schedule was xtended till 11pm, so couldn make it, fine..
val.., felt so dizzy, she cud hav fainted, decided 2 go home in de end OKIE FINE...
so dere left fel n i! oh well, nvm!
we watched MOVIES N ate the JUNK FOOD! so, tad made us FAT PIGS...
oh, den de freakin drained out us, slept at abt 4am, cos fel was telling me BEDTYM STORIES of her HILARIOUS temasek frens=)
veri Funny Ar!!!
den at 7am plus..val tried her damn luck 2 call me while she was in de airport...
gd 4 her, i ans de call, if not i wud hav had 2 listen 2 tad DonaldDuck ringtone of mine, ALAMAK...
i kinda miss val...
sigh, 23rd april's coming soon, m so down=(

2007-03-25T05:27:00.000-07:00

jasperlimjunhao, ur de worst fella...
i freakin hate u 2 de max..
i realli don wanna hate u, bud u were 2oo much..
u piece of shit=X
WORST FELLA ON DE WHOLE PLANET

2007-03-22T09:30:00.000-07:00

having mixed emotions now...
so i realli don kno wads going on, sigh...
wad's wrong wif me??
y does it change so easily?
it's spposed 2 be hard aft de ache...
hai, i realli don understand it, it's so weird
jolly well kno i cant n shudn, bud it's jus unbearable...
oh well, nth much 2 say le, de words r all jamming in myself..
btw, work was bz, bud can handle la...
we made few horrible mistakes, how depressed=S
n caused jasmine quite alot of trouble, how sry i feel man...
oh, went for poly checkup too...x-rays n all..
i worked frm 12 plus till 11...
cool man, spendin my tym workin as P-timer's is so much...erm, aiya, lost for words...
im dead sleepy, chao

2007-03-21T14:33:00.000-07:00

hey hey, now's lyk 533am thurs...
val n i stayed awake n toked on de fone while watchin cartoons...
oh man, we're so no life, lolx..
no, actualli tis is called "night life"...
well, now m supposed 2 b slping, bud aiya..feels weird la..
im damn tired bud jus catn go 2 de bed..
n she's gonna wake me up at 8 to get ready 2 go for medical checkup at de airport's raffles medical..
my head is currently pounding, it's lyk so painful n im abt to faint..
oh my, hope de checkup wont hav blood test??im afraid of de needle=S...
haha, SL= stephanie lim, NOT station leader, lolx!
well, work was life giving=)
btw, gd morning, m going 2 go bongkers soon, oh well..
erm, i suppose evry1 has deep secrets within demselves rite??
i cant deny tad i don hAv, in fact i do hav 1 which i highly doubt i'll eva pour it out, even if it's by accident...
or mayb, i'll slowly 4get tad i hav a dark secret, hmm...
my head is officially killing me, chao!

2007-03-19T11:09:00.000-07:00

when i turn back to c de past, it all felt lyk a dream...
i cant tell if it realli happened...
i can onli rmb wad happened..
i convinced myself tad it was jus my life.
evryting was prob planned, or pre-planned...
no1 knows 4 sure...
now, i'll b realli happy to c my frens happy i guess..
at least i m glad nt 2 c my frens in de state i was previously..
it sucked big tym, ya it realli did.
n mayb 2 months aft, i had another one...
well, currently my side of another story jus ended wif my reply...
i couldn regret wad i did...
cos, i had 2 do it for sum1 else's sick...
mayb i was a mean person 2 tad sum1, bud i felt realli sry...
i totalli din mean 2 hurt tad sum1.'
i had no intentions to hurt tad sum1...
cos i kno how tad hurt feeling feels lyk..
even if i wanted to turn back, or take away de words i've said,,
i donkno if i hav de courage to speak up 1st...
i cant help tinkin abt tad sum1, as tad 1 was a nice person...
thou he din looked lyk one .
He realli is a nice 1...
well now tad sum1's kind of ignoring me...
feeling sad, bud wad can i do??
i hav no idea..
i realli realli wish tad tad sum1 wud stop ignoring me,
cos tad1 msged me sayin tad when i stop lyk him, we cud still b gd frens..
isnt tad de way it shud be??
lyk stil frens?
how cum their " kind" are so weird??
i jus don gettit...
well , be brave man..dey r their "kind"
how cum it is our "kind" tad's braver??
sad case for our "kind"...
feeling sooo down=(

2007-03-18T08:44:00.000-07:00

sigh, every1's leaving...
when sch starts, i guess most of us cant work le...
tads so sad la kkx..
i mean we all gathered 2gether unknowingly..
den soon we're all goin our ways...
it's gd la i mean, to work towards wadeva we wanna do...
bud i guess we're not gonna b able 2 meet as frequently as b4 le=(
BOOHOOHOO=(...
m so sad, oh well...
actualli, i din expect being gd frens wif sum frens..
quite unexpected thou...
bud it was fun being gd frens wif dem=)
will gd frens stay 4eva?
hav no idea at all...
well i nv had a best fren b4, cos we cudn last being besties for long..
so apparently, having gd frens r gd enuf 4 me=)
man..,2dae was such a gloomy day, cos ray had a weird behavious ...
sigh, donkno wad 2 say le...
evry1's leaving=(
tym realli passes fast when we're having fun...
oh man..so sad

2007-03-17T05:00:00.000-07:00

stayed ova at fel's hse wif val last night...
b4 tad went 4 supper.. er, had junk supper in her hse agn, lolx
played lyk crazy in her rm..watched princess dairy shows, jus too nice 2 watch alreadi=)
laughing non-stop...
slept at 6 plus am,, woke up at 2 plus..
oh man, so sleepy now lorx..
haha, fel n char had 2 work today kakaka...
im bored 2 death at hme=S...
hav no dinner, so hungry=(...
fel n i gotta go on a diet now...
kakaka, lyk i will liddat, lolx
oh man, he's hme alreadi...
dere goes my "freedom" haix..
aft many tots, i wished i was nv born=/
so much beta i guess, im jus an odd person
trlalala, i face 4 walls at hme, tok 2 my whiteboard, n soft toys, n my reflection=)
tads no1,
2 persons r ignoring me cos dey're such cowards..
one living in de west, de oth in de east..
de nicest ppl but oso de meanest persons=(
tads no.2,
i cant do wad i desire, whther it's studies, or outside life=(
tad sucks, it's lyk misery..
it's no,3,
apparently sum ppl take me 4 granted, treat me as invisible at tyms...
feels lyk im disappearing in2 a dot..
it's no4,
so isnt it betta if i was nv born?
now, im becoming particles of sand floating in de air

2007-03-15T09:06:00.000-07:00

u were de nicest person, bud oso de worst one tad i knew...
can nv 4get u at all, de feelings r fading in an xtremely slow rate..
2 mnths ltr, i stil feel for u..
3mnths aft, i stil tink of u..
4 mnths ltr??
despite de short period of tym, i hav numerous memories of u..
bud, dey shud soon not be tot of alreadi...
cos it'll oni deepen my pain..
oh well, i managed de storms i encountered for de past 2 mnths...
so apparently, tis love pain shudn b animore prob 4 me..
meanwhile,, m feeling sumting for another 1 thou...
bud tis mus b kept back, cos if tis blows..
i may nv 4giv myself =X

2007-03-11T09:07:00.000-07:00

wads wif ppl now la?
wads wif her lorx?
character's so..,walao eh..
so meant tad last tym we ignored her for sum reason..
our reason was so right can..
cant believe it;s stil liddat,...
it's getting irritating la...
im getting kinda pissed lorx, wth
so lyk tryin to ren, but she's lyk getting frm bad to worst,
hais wad a person she is la...
it's jus annoying, n her rxn is too soo exaggerating sumtyms can?!
so cant staand it at all la,, n she;s so clingy to certain ppl..
walao eh, cant she change her character 4 de betta??
damn irritated, super irritated la=X

2007-03-07T09:17:00.000-08:00

4th march, char's bdae...so den, we had a chalet, dinner at fishin village,,
yum yum..=)
den play play play n drink n drink...
den sum frens n i stayed ova..
i was so engrossed in playin de psp..so fun
played till i couldn stay awake le arnd 430am slept..
dead tired de nxt day cos we awoke at 9 plus..
freakin earli, bud no choice, had 2 check out by 1020?
yea, bud we cont to ddilee-dareley, lolx
haha, char so funny...she ate tom yam pao mian n drank pepsi..
had lao sai lol!
funny xia...
den we waited for shuttle bus to pasir ris inter...
den waited for cab 4 soo long to go char's hse throw our stuff down first...
erm, cabbed to tm, watched norbit!
funny la lolx...
i so dislike tad norbit's "wife", so annoying n mean 2 him=X
den i did fall aslp bit lolx, too tired le la...
hmm aft tad, went to ntuc buy pao mian n oth food, n even asked if dey sold PARMA HAM, i love it!
ITALIAN HAM=)
din hav=(, oh well..
went char's hse to cook n eat..
den her doggies were so cute, barkin n wagging tails n all, ADORABLE...
i borrowed her bike..cycled n crashed to de wall...haha, long tym nv cycle le..
well den went 2 work, took ova fel, cos she had french class, oh well
so dead stoned durin work...
speaking of stone...
2dae waited for val 2 end her navy tok...
tad dumb building was in de middle of nowhere, so diff 2 find de place lorx..
well, i went 2 de nearest hdb void n decomposed...
played wif a kitty, so cute=)
played wif psp, msg ppl.. argh so terribly bored..
when she ended, we freakin walked so far bud gt lost..
pek chek la..bud stil found our way...
went to sp for sum reason..
den to tm buy bags, hooray, n food, was starving...
den went 2 work..so sleepy,
came hme at 1230am, now im dead tired

2007-03-01T13:00:00.000-08:00

came home at 230 am...
er, now's 501am, im not aslp yet..
im mad okie...lyk robot liddat la,,
but ltr i'll be dead tired de..no doubt lolx..
today dere was a function,, sum wad a "party",, so ya..
in de VIP rm..so ya..
val n i dragged tym outside so tad we cud stay on longer..
oops, wakaka.."succeded", aniwae, we cud cab hme so ya...
fun to handle function lei..
i wan handle more lorx..=)
alamak, sore throat now..
oh ya, we "tou he" de red wine aft de guests left lolx...
so mani cups left lorx...
so we drank abt 2 cups?
i was red alreadi lorx, wad de shyt..
so dey tot i was drunk..?
er, i oso don kno la...
but i sure do kno de for real drunk feeling...
well, i was jus bit goggy, sleepy, high jus now,,heheh
oh, had so mani tables 2 clean n reset..
bud was okie la..
we had free desserts, ray so nice...
ice cream, cream caramel, panna cotta. yum la..
n more ice cream agn, haha
overall, we had fun ba...

oh man, my strawberry cheese cake, howwww?
mus go all de way 2 tad good donkno wad hotel to buy,
jus for 1 slice which costs $4..
hope it's worth it la...

oh life's gettin boring now...
life is as gd as no life=S

2007-02-28T09:55:00.000-08:00

home quite earli todae..
so xian lorx..was so restless during work...
no mood 2 do nething,,sigh
sent food 2 wrong table, key in wrong order,,
walao..todae sucked la..
donkno lei,, bit distracted todae..
y liddat lei..??
so sickening...
ahhh, mus tell myself cannot lyk him, cos it's an offence 2 do so...
=(...=S
arghh, tml hav work

2007-02-27T09:05:00.000-08:00

came home at 1235am..
earli hor..lolx
neway, haiya i've gotta keep telling myself tis..,
"mus not like him..mus not lik him..it's an offence to do so.."
i mus keep telling myself it's an offence to do so...
if not i'll jus go bonkers likin u la..
why m i so soft hearted?!
nonono, mus hav a change of heart=S
arrr..so sucky la..so xingku to lyk sum1..
bleargh...kena sai la..
oh man, jus now val wanted piggy-back me, fine
so i jumped n we ended up doing stunts=X
LOLX.. so funny can, was lyk laughing my head off!
wakaka=D
wah lao, so fun dennis piggy-backed n ran..
cool man wakaka=D
val got piggy-backed too, almost got herself flipped ova lolx...
aiya, so mani ppl joining pasta fresca to work, alamak lorx..
sighh,, feels so weird thou...
my head is pounding,,bobbing up n down, left n right..
argh, so painful!
suck, suck, suck,
n btw,,if u din shyt b'lif my words,,i heck it!
irritating lorx, pieces of shyt...

2007-02-26T08:37:00.000-08:00

jus came back frm work...
yea, so tired today la...
alamak... lyk zombie lorx..
went to work lyk zombie oso...
dead girl walking..
aniwae,, sum1 "brilliant" person went to put my hp in2 val's bag?
den when she went for karate, found my hp inside??
so "GREAT" la...
so de whole night i wont hav my fone wif me=(
BOOHOOOO...
WOW, jasmine let me close bar today lei..
quite happy leii..
din xpect her to put de bar in my hands..
lolx..thx so much! she will hav fu bao de=)
came home lyk 1230 am..
wa..went not blood related aunt's place..
no her mum's place first..
she's so nice man=)
lyk to laugh, so cute
she gav me ang bao!
woo hoooo..
least gt sum $$=)
wakaka...
so mani pussy cats=)
sho cute man lol..
den went to aunt sue's hse=)
i love her dogs, cats haha
so cute n so mani man..
lolx..
all got name de so cute la=)
and dennis wong is so handsome now..haha,
oh well, he was always cute thou, haha

mish jasper..tad sucker=(
reali mish him...bud de past is de past..
i cant rewind it at all..
dere's nth i can do..
it's impossible alreadi...

2007-02-24T08:52:00.000-08:00

sigh..im decomposing at home=S
it's so freaking boring, i so hav no life
wads wrong wif me?? nowadays having HEADACHE=(
and FLU and SORETHROAT=X
ahhh, im not gonna die so fast,,im still young!
WADEVA...betta still thou..
im so shyt sleepy evryday now..especialli ytd..
now's lyk 1am sunday..
so boring, de whole of today stay at home agn
myohmy...
and i totally look retarded now, my fringe's short!
myohmy...
BOOHOOHOO..
shall make a trip 2 white sanda for sum nail polish??
mayb lorx...
im so, veri bored till im toking 2 myself?
myohmy...

2007-02-22T09:10:00.000-08:00

even thou u can easily walk away,
i cant do so as easily...
wad m i to do?
y r u lyk tis lei?
u may not hav ani shyt idea tad u've jus crushed sum1's hart..
u may not hav realised how painful a smashed hart is...
how shattered it is,u wont care?
ya, tis if life, it's jus tis weird...wad to do lei..
oh well, memories cant b easily forgotten,
bud dey can b "not tot of"...
aiya, we're impossoble alreadi aniwae...
=( =(
2 ppl frm opp ends of de world wont eva b together4 long...
i guess, or rather cant eva b 2gether

2007-02-21T08:04:00.000-08:00

hey hey i jus returned frm pasta...
so pissed by "my ppl" la,,kena sai, 11 plus pm called late meh?
it's so earli lorx..
so irritating, pucking shyt
aniwaex,i so dread home for tis shyt reason la..
WDV MAN..
oOoO,,tis wk end offf!
oh no, wad to do??
shucks shucks shucks..hai i hav no mood 2 do aniting leiiii.
SO XIAN LA=S
TO DE DEATH BED!=X
chikin sai la...
OH, tml work's 3-11 i tink..
OH OH OH..
val n i r runny-nosing lyk mad,,
n soring de throat tooooo..
n ar-chiu-ing lyk mad tooo ALAMAK...
apparently char has none of tis symtoms, lolx
YAWN IM SO TIRED LA..
i wish i cud c JJH in 3-D form agn...

2007-02-20T11:06:00.000-08:00

now's lyk wad tym le??alamak=)
n i hav work at 12pm tml??
omg, no need 2 wake up le la,lolx
wao,val n i having "nose prob" de whole day..
so irritatin n uncomfortable..
ARGH!..ah! i dowan work 12-6 la,so xian lorx..
boring n few customers..n afternoon evrytym alone de lorx..
lonelinesssssss, ha
hmm,today work dontkno y i so tired..
mayb nv slp enuf..
HMMMMMMMM...,
i miss tad piece of shyt=S
i can oni c his 2-D pic n presence online...
so wdv la,,i cant believe im still in2 tad shitty him=(
GOOD NIGHT

2007-02-19T08:10:00.000-08:00

i jus came home frm work...xian
couldn stay long, if not he'll start nagging at me agn n all..
so stressed hai=(
sad case, lyk sum shyt sucking life...
walao, den wdv i type on msn nick n stuff mus not giv away ani shyt ting la..
cos he may read it,,asshole...n my diary cant rite too much "tings", if not dey may take itt=( sumore mine no freakin lock..damn la
so IRRITATING=(ARGH!
sigh=(...wad a shyt life i hav now...
wa, den evryday hav to go out wif ur, den my frens how?
kena sai la..wtf/h can,,
i dowan means dowan lorx,puck it la,,no such ting as forcing lorx=(
PUCKING SHYT=(
argh, hai, sigh...
OH MY, im having mixed feelings now?
so shyt feeling...how can liddat leii??
by rite is cant de lorx,,bud lyk so confusing till dontkno wads going on le...?
i mish JJH:[

2007-02-18T11:45:00.000-08:00

oh,my shyt life sucks big tym=(
evryting seems related, all r equally sucky, especially tings concerning "my ppl"..
HAI=(, im officially depressed
depressed n stressed till a state tad i cant smile or even feel happi alreadi, especialli wif "my ppl"...
it'll b rare if i feel overwhelmed agn..
cos nth much cept 4 few tings can make me smile n laugh...
sigh,hai,boohooo=(...
i feel lyk a piece of smelly shyt now..
sum1 save my life=(

2007-02-14T09:13:00.000-08:00

one moment, happily 2gether,,hu knos if urs was fake=(
de nxt moment, i no longer get 2 c u agn, not even speak 2 u..
how's de feeling lyk? i can ans tad..
it sucks big tym la..
i so totalli hate, dislyk yew, but i stil lyk yew, wad to do lei?
piece of shit lorx yew,,meanie shit...
n now i've gotta find a suitable person 2 make use of..
ya, i kno im mean, too bad lorx.. hu ask u treat me liddat..BB!
aniwae,,pasta was super ultra bz today=)..
so much betta den no customers lorx..
ovaall it was "fun", thou got sum "unhappy" stuff..
bud de takin order, serving food n all, "kinda fun"..thou scary..
alamak damn scary la especialli de food n bills..
xiao liao lorx..
bud ovaall evry1 did it la,, shiok la, work 2gether=)
workin in pasta as a PTer may be one of de nicest ting tad eva happened..MAY BE LA..
oh well..for me, im glad la..but dontkno how long im gonna stay dere le=(,so sad la
cos of my damn "ppl", so fcuking ass hole, control my life lyk shit..dont b'lief tad i can cope..
so freaking angry @ de tot of tis la..
im lyk damn stress when he cums home, i tok 2 him on fone stress lyk shit le lorx,, wad more c'ing him=(
sad case..
working in pasta is lyk will oso "motivate me to do oth stuff properly"..
so sad, dontkno if i can cont workin dere le,,i so hate those "ppl" 4 stopping me
wa, today saw so mani couples..so envious, haha
gt so mani cute guys n pretty girls lorx..cool man
aniwae, my life's abt to end i dontkno how la..
tings r so messsy n stressful 4 me till i dontkno hu n wad i m le..
im jus a blk of wood la

2007-02-13T09:17:00.000-08:00

tml's v day..
workin 12-11
oh my gosh,,i hope not too crowded lei, if not we die la..
oni hav 5 staff, alamak
aiya, den i had to cancel my "yue", i feel so mean la..
im lyk de "bad "person..
aniwae i intend it to b..as "revenge" heh..

2007-01-31T09:32:00.000-08:00

i came back at lyk wad tym??
1257 am lolx...frm work!
aiya,,today was bz,,bud dontkno y,i felt so bored inside la..
lyk wan to smile,laugh oso veri diff..kena sai la..
n i wasn at de right mind too lorx..
pathetic me,,de whole shit tym was miserably tinking of JJh...
N i even msg to ask how he shit is,,but for de whole day no reply,,
asshole,,treat me liddat..how can he lorx..
chao ji da huai dan lorx,..chaoX1000000 ji da huai huai huai dan:(
wao lao,,damn xing tong la..
he's lyk a dead person now can..or more lyk i nv existed to him??
miss him lyk shit,,asshole sucker idiot piece of shit,,
i hate JJh so much,,but still lyk him so much,,wad's de prob wif me??
i oso dontkno,,im such a brain dead idiot...
tis whole ting wif him was freakin nonsense lorx,,
zao zidao,,jiu bu yao xihuan ta le lorx:(
now so damn hard to stop,,no choice la
oh dear me,,tml work 12-6,,sure late lorx!
i evryday slp lyk pigg,,wake up soo late=S...
im so tired till i can stay in a coma lolx...
GOODNIGHT

2007-01-27T09:31:00.000-08:00

rahhh..so so full!
cos val & i ate fish n co.,,
so much food man!
but we oni ordered one dish=)
wif drinks n soup la..
so freakin full,,till i feel so nausea lolx..
haha,,den crop n chongie came=)so exciting=)
den dey ate quite alot,,n drank sooo much water lolx!
6 cups haha!
so funny la,,we're laughin non stop haha,,
their ice cream looked soo delicious=)
den dey ate till so bloody full,,till crop wanted to vomit!
HAHA,,hu ask her drink soo much water! lolx
aniwae,,b4 tad kena freakin scolding by a customer,,
walao so damn sad la,,n i felt bad cos jasmine kena more la,,=(
might as well jus scold me la,,not her lorx
aniwae ova le la..
so darn sad la,,everi wk i make so freakin mani mistakes..
sighsigh..
and abt tml,,i rather go & die den go for tad stupid alumni..
so bloody forced to la! kena sai la=X so irritated

2007-01-26T10:51:00.000-08:00

im soo tired la..
omg,,sun is comin le HOW?
shyt man, i hate tis sunday la..
n my racket's so not wif me too..
lyk wdv lorx,,
hmmm,,today went sch went val,charlene, adele & rosanne=)
er to pass bk to ppl la,,if nt go for wad lorx..no rymn of reason...
den met n toked to sum of their teachers, fun thou..
er den went to eat food wif mdm chan n her daughter, beverly=)
so cute la,, pri1 oni=)
aiyo, im 16 le n she's oni 7???
lolx i feel super old la,,9 yrs apart leii...
den i pei charlene n val go karate b4 going to resturant for meeting,,,
shyt man,,i do hope i can work full tym on those CNY days la..
cos i said can on my own accord=) ha..
shucks la,, tml hav work at 12pm, i haven slp yet, 3am le lorx,,
i wan work longer but ray dont allow,,POS la,,kiddin la=)
hmmm,,once in awhile..i was tinkin if shud 4get u la...
cos my hart's going bonkers frm missin u le,,
my brain's going nuts as well,,i myself am going crazy soon..
mayb one day i will stop liking u la..hu knows

2007-01-24T07:22:00.000-08:00

DONT make me call u an asshole for hurting me so badly thou u tink i wont feel hurt..
u betta NOT hide from me cos we'll end up still meeting agn..
wad kind of DA NAN REN are u man??
face me if u realli are a real one la!
freak u,, im pissed off wif u for doing tad to me,
but yet i stil freakin lyk u so much,,
no matter wad i so cant forget abt lykin u la kkx..
n i miss u lyk shit la u freak,,
i feel damn painful inside kkx,,it's not lyk i wan2 feel it,,
but it hurts lyk shit practically everyday no matter how happy i am la...
so wad if u gt o levels' tis yr huh??
obviously i kno it's impt cos i've taken it le,,
but if u on every sat can go out wif frens, y cant i even c u??
u even said i can c u agn if ur free...
u freakin boy,,liar! u were bloody toying wif me!
i hate u lyk shit,,but i lyk u lyk shit as well...
tads why im feeling freakin painful inside la,,
tis's is de first damn tym im feeling soo painful can..

2007-01-24T06:48:00.000-08:00

soo sleepy today...
wao man, so lucki my fren last min asked me out 4 dinner,,
den aft work i no need go home so earli haha=)
wa lao eh fcuk laaaa,,bloody hell irritating la tad woman!
so sickening,, wad go there jus for her my shit la,,
ass la,ARGH IM so freakin irritated la wa lan lei...
my blood's boiling lorx wad the shit stop forcing us to freakin go,,
and using freakin captain n wad "already sent out names in le" to threaten us la!?
besides,, so damn few ppl play wad shit la..sure no fun lorx,,boring lyk shit la!
assssssssssss!?!
wa piang,,i so need to cool down la..my blood is boiling i can even cook egg lorx..
POS POS POS POS POS POS!!aaarrgghhhhhh

2007-01-23T08:46:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey,,
i worked 11 hrs today! lolx...
12-11=)..
bud hor i not tired physically la..
oni sleepy..lyk jus now when i had 2 act as a customer during my break!
hahahahaha...
i fell alsp on de table la=)..
today work was okie la, bit fun here n there..thou still made mistakes..
aiyo, so funni la...
tml im workin 12-6, xian la in de day..
wad to do in de night lei??
eatin grapes now! yum=)
wo hoo!, i love char's mp3..cos e songs r nice=)
especially tad "liang shan bo & ju li ye", and "ting mama de hua"..
super nice la,,
haaaa, aft get my pay i hope to buy mp3=)
o level results r officially cumin out on de 9th feb,,oh man, im soo nervous..
erm,,23 days frm de 1st le..sigh..
i've waited 23 days for you le,,but still no change,,so sad=(

2007-01-22T08:27:00.000-08:00

wa,,i din kno there was str8 bus frm airport to home,,
good lei=),,53!
hahahahaha...
aniwae, today few staff,,wa lao, i was de oni GIRL..
aniwae, came back early today lei,,
abt 1145 liddat..=)
tml i chose to work full tym..
cos 1 reason, hav val there ma...
so wont b so lonely ba...
i hope so la,,
xian la..jus try lorx,, if too tiring or lonely or xian den forgetit lor...
er..val said sch is WEIRD now??
i tink so too...
so weird la, it changed till lyk so...
aniwae,,my life is dead xian la,,
it's as good as not having one..
my so called story,,jus ended in the middle of nowhere=(
wad's de ending,,or de nxt starting..it's left unknown...=(

2007-01-21T01:14:00.000-08:00

so bored now...
it's sunday blah,,so offday=)
oh man,,tym to work alone agn on mons..but wdv la..
so xian now,,ought to exercise least abit if not i'll becum a pigg
or if not,,i'llbecum a jellyfish la..
wa lao,,nxt sun hav tis alumni tingy so shit man..
n without consent my name got sent in too n lyk i so dont wanna go la,,
P.O.S la tad person! lolx...
i tink my brain's sth wrong,,keep having headaches n i dontkno y...
arrgghh...
oohh,,tis wk my work days r mostly 12-6!..hmm, but actualli,,workin at night dosen matter much le..
i wont mind le cos of one reason, ahem*,sad case
now i ooughta smile=),,
despite de pieces of shit happening,,it's betta to smile=)
wads coming up is kinda scary..O LEVEL RESULTS,,my gosh
tad's ultra scary...9th feb lei wa lao b4 CNY,,
how am i gonna face my family relatives n all??
comfirm ask one lorx oh man..
so dislyk ppl to ask abt my results la...
im so dizzy now,,n sleepy...
life is kinda gd now, in terms of not going sch for de first 3 mnths..
i prefer tis life for now=)
work&play...rawks

2007-01-20T08:07:00.000-08:00

i jus returned frm work...
so tired la,,
it's sat ytd, so there were mani customers,,
de resturant was full!
n we were running all ova de place...
n de kitchen flr is so oily..
so slippery lolx...
wa lao,, nxt wk mon im workin alone n some oth days..
sad case..haha
nvm i can tok 2 de wall=)
no la kiddin got ppl to tok to!
eatin pasta evry work day is so BORING...
im so full la.......
n nxt wk im lyk workin mostly 12-6,, so ya..
now i dontkno how im gonna spend my night..
actualli workin at night oso not bad la..
in lyk de reason y i din wan work at night cos i can go online earlier ma..
but it's not much diff now ba.. so wad if i go online earlier n wait 4 him?
lyk he'll speak to me la...
he's so mean to me,,
where got ppl suddenly liddat de...

2007-01-15T08:42:00.000-08:00

today work was veri boring,, super duper boring till i can fall aslp..
erm, bit stressful too cos i've to read e enu n learn to read those italian words n kno wad's the food n wads inside...
it's so lyk studyin hehehe..
n memorising lorx..
i hate doing those stuff,,cos it drives me crazy...
tink hor,, it'll take me a yr to finish de whole menu lolx..
tads not veri gd..but least i stil finish wad right?? ha yea lorx..
tml work's at night agn..so sick la..i dislyk workin at night, lyk so wth..
go home so late den cant do aniting le...
xian ar xian ar...

2007-01-14T23:47:00.000-08:00

ARGH! IM DAMN XIAN LA...
APART FRM WORK,,IM TRAPPED AT HOME
& WORK IS EQUALLY BORING N XIAN..
WALAO EH,,MY LIFE IS GOOD AS NOT HAVING A LIFE..
SIIGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
BOREDOM,,BOREDOM,,BOREDOM,,
IM GONNA B A DEAD-HEARTED PERSON SOON...
HOW ABT NUMB-HEARTED..
NOW IM FACING A DULL WORLD,,COS MY HSE IS SO DARK,,NO MATTER HOW I SWITCH ON DE LIGHTS,,IT'S STILL DARK..BESDIES,,IT'S POURING OUTSIDE FOR MANY DAYS...MAKES THE WORLD EVEN MORE DULL...
BUT,,HAPPINESS CAN STIL BE FOUND WITHIN TIS DULLNESS=),,IT'S OUR CHOICE..
SMILE=)

2007-01-14T06:37:00.000-08:00

im stoning,,staring into de thin air..
but i still see you...
no matter wad i do n try,, i still see you onli..
okie im lyk blinded by you,,
one day i'll put the curtains down,,n no longer be blinded..
but tads if i can do it...

2007-01-12T04:24:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOSH, IT'S WINTER IN S'PORE NOW!
IT'S SO SO COLDD...

right.., aniwae, i started work le..
2nd day oni, wa many customers ba..but i tink dinner will hav many more.
im super tired la aft work..
sit down dont do aniting can doze off le...
but work in tad resturant, so xian lei..if hav no customers..is reali dont hav de lorx..
so xian la..
but can earn $ can le la..
but so little la the pay..
luckily mine's part tym..if not less ar..
XIAN..WAD TO DO??
i dowan work there le la..
airport makes me rmb alot of the past which i dont wish to rmb.
cos rmbing dem makes my hart painful aft awhile...
& tad sucks..

2007-01-02T03:39:00.000-08:00

ha today was xian..bud less xian den other days..
least i got out of my hse...
played tennis den i had muscle ache on my thigh...
n i even vomitted eww...wth..mus b i haven been realli exercising for quite awhile...
den we went tm argh...
nth much to do...wanted to get application form frm haiggen dazz bud end up oso din cos fren din realli felt lyk workin there le...sigh
got contract oso ma...6months lei..BUD there's afternoon shift which ends at 5..so i dont mind...
i wont mind ani job tad ends work at 5pm plus la..lolx
haiya its rather diff to find den..
bud hav sum jobs liddat lei i found out...
yea man...jiayou ba minqi!
n hor..i purposely used the payfone to call sum1..
well it was to test out sumting...
n i kinda found out sumting too..bud hope it wasn true ba
cos if not i'll b so heartbroken=(
bud i kind of trust him..so ya..hehehe
bud i guess i wont b so in2 him le..cos it'll b quite xing ku ba..
wo men shi bu tong shi jie de ren, ke shi ni shuo guo, nothing is impossible..

2006-12-31T12:02:00.000-08:00

my gosh my cramps are hurting so badly
i tot i had indigestion instead...aiyo
aniwae i haven touched tis blog of mine for a long tym i gues..
it's kinda rotting bud now im renewing it?
ouch it seriously hurts big tym...
hmm i went 2 japan n one day aft i returned i went 2 taiwan...
both ctries were oki la...
actually japan was betta.. in terms of scenary
it's realli beautiful=)
taiwan..erm e places we visited wasn realli nice...
bud sum were not bad la...
lyk those cactus we saw...dey were cute=)

2006-12-15T05:58:00.000-08:00

okies... a super long tym since i updated tis rotting blog
i came back frm taiwan n japan ytd lahx=)
quite fun ma=)
wished hol there was longer leii...
more den a week ma den more fun=)
hehehehe lolxx
ppl in both tour groups were friendly leiix
not bad not bad...=)
had FUNN hee

2006-10-01T01:45:00.000-07:00

oh man...
i cant wait for o levels to be ova...
its lyk going 2 last for more den 2 wks!?
walao...haix
bud aft tad i tink 1st dec...
i'll be going to japan!!
hmm...bud its freezing winter
oh i dont lyk cold winter lar
freeze me to death oni...
wonder how fun its going 2 b...
going in package tour for sure
bud i oso cant wait to cum back
hehehe...
see lar...
i've got to keep tis as a secret frm andre for the tym being
bud i've hinted him...
bud dontkno if he gottit
doubt so ha...
aniwae tis whole wk n last were depressing weeks
totally lar...
now i wonder how im going to study agn...
so lazy now lyk a PIG...
den evryday have tutorials for 2 n half hrs...
wth i hate it...
i dont care wdv i jus dislyk it alot lar
darn sucky can stoopid skl...
i will definately at least slp thru 15 mins of the lessons
im so sleepy now...

2006-09-25T07:10:00.000-07:00

today's tutorial was wif A.Lim
i was so frightened of her bud wdV...
actually...she's nice sumtyms n funni too=)
i lyk her teaching:)
aniwae jus now 2 persons insulted me
lyk dey cant even tink b4 dey speak
jus hav no idea how hurting it was to me...
so annoying lar
mayb it might not b to dem...
bud it definately was to me lar
heartless ppl...
evryone has a temper isnt it...
jus bcos i keep silent without emotions showing dosent mean u can as n when insult me lar...
wth i hate it okies...
totally irritates me
n i doubt u treat me as a damn real fren
more lyk jus sum1 living near u...
how can u treat me liddat lar...
so much for me treating u as a real fren
u might not notice it cos its jus U...
HAIYA FORGETTIT LAR
den i oso heared tad i failed a.maths
was on a verge of tears lar
how can tad b lor
i literately studied n practised
n i get tis results...
bloodyshit depressing lar
i might as well stop studying now
my parents will kill me, look down on me, n tink im gd for nth
so much for having smart parents
laLalaLaLaLllaAa...
dere's more to cum
OH MY OHMY
i was so so happy tad HADY MIRZA WON!!
I LOVE HIM=)

2006-09-21T05:44:00.000-07:00

hey hey... tml's grad night
how exciting=)
i'll be going to a salon agn...
once in a long long tym..haha
oh well
how can tad mum do tad 2 me
she dont let me go out aft grad night
wad the shit lar...so irritating
dada oso the same
i dont care man
if i enter the hse
i'll stay ova night at tree's hse
cummi bothered
jus one day go out n play oso cant
sickening lar okie
it's so annoying
we got back our ss prelims
i did veri badly of jus passing
so sad man
im so scared now
if oni i passed sbq den cud hav gotten B
so depressed aft tad
so =(=(
hai hai den had chem practical in afternoon...
it din last till 5...
which was a gd ting
aft tad i went to meet tree n frens at downtown
dey all finished doing their nails
so i was e late one
dey went 2 makan mac while i sleepily had my nails done
my first tym doing manicure n padicure
how amusing=)
it feels nice to hav ur nails painted=)
i actually dont wan2 go for grad night...
scared lar...
dontkno for wad oso jus scared lar
sit so high up sum more
bud not bad lar quite okie den not so many ppl see
hahaha
okie lar im dead sleepy
zzZZZzz

2006-08-16T05:15:00.000-07:00

ohh my sorethroat's not ani better...
aniwae had chem mock jus now...
i studied okie bud i cudn do the paper
so disappointing lar
lyk so down sigh
im trying to work for my chemistry
i dont tink it's a goner...
tads y im trying
bud results dont seem right...
haix...
n i realli wonder how 2 do well for my eng
when it's lyk c5??
i dont care lor
i mus get b3 or a2
bud im sucha pig lar so lazy
sighsighsigh
wad 2 do...
these few days right...
e d&t room staircase always closed
annoying lar...
den hav to take longer route grr!
i wan 2 get new bag!
im sick n tired of all my bags=(
its irritating me...
i feel lyk burning my billabong sling bag=s
so not nice to varry animore lar!?
there's geog mock tis fri wad the shit
n so many caj?!
wad the shit
tink tml i might stand outside for bio agn??
ohmygosh=O

2006-08-15T05:27:00.000-07:00

my throat is so sore...
its so painful lor
my medicine finish alreadi
still haven cure
in class its so painful lar...
howhowhow??
tml there's chemistry mock exam?!?
ohmygosh
n there geog n ss hw??
i din kno
n i dontkno how 2 do geog
how?
i dont feel lyk doing cos i dont understand at all
tml's lesson is so strainious...such word??
so xian lor ss den goeg...
BORING MAN
my goodness...
n i finally bought a new wallet...
cos i dontlyk tad green wallet so ugly...
hehehe
aniwae...
oh dear i realised too...
on fri hav geog mock exam
how great...
aiya one day by one day lar
n my o level orals nxt mon or tue
MY GOSH
i wish i was talkative during oral=)
its 830...im still typing rubbish here...
kaes chao alreadi=)

2006-08-13T07:21:00.000-07:00

OUCH!!
having a veri bad n painful sorethroat=(

HAPPY 5months=)=D

2006-08-12T06:13:00.000-07:00

i am so GLOOMY
n SCARED=X

2006-08-11T05:08:00.000-07:00

today we got back o level MT paper...
i got B3=(
dontkno whether to b sad or happy
bud i dont feel well
aniwae...
im half dead cos my parents'll be so disappointed
n my tutor will b sad
bud aniwae...
wads done is done
i dont feel gd either...
i aim to get 13 pts for L1r5
mus jiayo myself sumtyms...
even thou i might b sad bud...
mus not be discouraged!
im lyk toking to myself here lar
hu cares man...
bud im lyk so lazy
evryday brain not working...
n sumtyms ppl jus irritate me out of no reason
annoys me badly...
tink im having mood swings now
so its a veri bad idea to tease me
lyk wad happened jus now...
i almost flared at sum one
bud decided to ignore her instead
"i need a basin now" hais

2006-08-10T03:29:00.000-07:00

bought my grad night dress today...
my goodness i look so weird lar
compared to last yrs dey wear the dresses n stuff
dontkno if nice anot lor
huhh...
i look so cuckoo lor
bud bought it le...
got no choice bud to wear lor
oh no
how??
i'll look so cuckoooo
oomg i dowan to go alreadi lar
so embarrasing to b seen in those weird clothes tad i've nv worn b4
look lyk summ weirdo
oh my how how how...
den had to try on sum "undergarment" cos cudnt wear sports bra
yuck man
it feels disgusting
so uncomfortable lor
i wonder how ppl tahan wearing such tings
eeeyer...
i tell u im oni gonna weat it ONCE n tads all
cos i'll look so cuckoo in evryting omg
i so cant for the grad night to end tad day...
cant wait man...=S

2006-08-08T04:52:00.000-07:00

sports days today...
so boring n xian
tis was the lamest sports day i eva had
we're jus pacing up n down, left n right
tad shows how boring it was...
aft tad we went bugis...
so nice cos i got sum stuff for "free"
oh well okie lar
least i felt betta aft tad
hehehe
den it was chao crowded...
n both of us were having pounding headaches...
den sum more the rest of dem keep goin up n down
frm 4th flr to 1st flr den back up...
so annoyed lor
den had to find dem too blabla
bud aft tad we got rather fine lar...
so tired n sleepy n yet i've got mountains of work to do
so rubbish lar
3 days no skl...
good ba
den fri hav phy/bio mock practical lor
omg how dumb is tad
right now im having pounding headache
which allows me to jus flare at anione at ani moment
how bad is tad...
oh oh oh...
i wan 2 buy tad pair of earrings!
bud its so darn far
wahlao
shud hav bought it jus now lor
wasted lar!? wdv
i wan 2 go on a hol now...
too tired of here alreadi
hmm...lets go to...
london!...newzealand!
or canada!...or australia!
or portugal!

2006-08-07T05:24:00.000-07:00

oh tml's national day eve...
hav tad sports days ting
oh my i refused to attend...
worst still dey make us play TWICE...
cos few ppl gonna pon
grrr
i dowan play agn lor!
i'd rather running events=)
cos can run!
hahahahahaha
i dowan to play wad...pass it on??
ohmygosh...
n im in gladiatress??
wads tad lor
i oni kno its use sum long ting n try to hit the person of e ting she's standing on
ehehehe
so wdv man the games...
veri exciting meh??
aniwae i nv lyked one sports day b4
hmm...
aniwae im bored...
oh no=X
shit lar i hav so much tuition work to do
cos wed hav tuition...
wad nonsense lar
blablabla...
so xian lar wahlao
arhh!
i lyk tad korean show on chU7PM
so romantic at ltr part=)
hahahahaha
ohhh im havin stomachachew wF
bye

2006-08-05T05:25:00.000-07:00

whoopie!
had few hrs of freedom in the hse
cos parents n bro not home
hehehe not bad...
had 2 go TM get sumting
so brought sim along
since she was bored at home too...
see arent i nice?=)
blablabla...
walk arnd for awhile or so
n bought food to eat...
was rather hungry n tempted by food
bud i tink im getting plummer=S
so not good...
aniwae did ONE chemistry exam paper for more den 3 hrs...
wad the...so slow lar...
now halfway thru an a.maths paper...
craps...
my highest earhole is infected agn
im hav so gotten used to dem getting infections...
bud so not used to the pain...
oh man?!
stubborn ears=X
heck lar...hehehe
so tired of evryting...
i feel so bored n tired
so sick of myself it realli feels terrible
not tad i wan to feel horrible
cos i try to occupy myself to forget it
bud it wudn work for long...
it jus keeps cuming back to me
making me feel horrid agn
how am i supposed to get tad huge sum of $ myself??
it'll b a miracle if i cud man

2006-08-04T05:22:00.000-07:00

i tink the racket's lost foreva...
ohmygosh
its such a big loss for me...
n i cant play tennis alreadi??
veri veri veri sad
im such a big FOOL...
wad has gotten into me in losing it??
how can i lose such a ting
everyone will jus say im a fool
hais
sum1 mus hav taken it
since bedok n pasir ris said dey din find ani racket...
pls return it back hueva hu took it
dont do aniting else wif it pls
i realli wan my racket back
i realli lyk my racket alot
it was me, the foolish person hu lost it
pls return it back to me=(

jus now...being nice to return sum1's wallet,
i got caught by magaret lee for earrings
im so pissed wif her
she's not rtc teacher oso...
she's NOT even A TEACHER...
she's JUS a GO STAFF...
wad right does she hav
i hate her...
den not oni earrings
bloody shit...
name tag tis n tad n evryting
she even made me write on paper wad rule i broke
n how many earrings i hav on each side
so i scribled n threw it at her face
i felt gd haha

2006-08-03T04:56:00.000-07:00

me, the dumbest, most brainless girl on earth created...
im so stoopid n dumb...
everyone's right...
im a pure blur head...
hu's so forgetful till i lost my racket...
im such a loser...
am i ever going to find it back??
i called pasir ris interchnge 2 check le...
tad bloody illiterate man said he wud call back...
bud he din...bastard...
till i called agn...
den sum shit man said he asked all e bus captain...
n nth was found...
den jan's dad helped me describe the racket n which part of bus i left it...
n wad tym...
n i also left my particulars wif him...
asshole how can take so many hrs oso haven call back...
sum shit service...
im a goner...
if my parnts kno...
they'll either b glad tad i lost it so tad i wont play it animore...
or they'll kill me...
i love my racket alot...
even thou its so rotten...
i feel so extremely sad...
im so unless lor...
im losing so many items...
my bio fys...
my hp ear piece...
my racket...
my heart right now is cracking n breaking in2 pieces...
im the world's no.1 idiot, dumbo, most careless person

2006-08-02T06:04:00.000-07:00

my hair is partially golden!
hahaha
cos of temparary dye...
haha...how fun
its so nice to play!
if i can...
i will buy many many diff colors n try dem on...!
so nice!
colored hair!!
haha
least betta den black...
its scary...
arrhh...
im a PURE BLOOD...
i'd rather be a MIXED BLOOD=)
i wan 2 b a German-chinese...
or a portugese-chinese
or a dutch-chinese
er...wadv lar...
eurasian lar!=)
HMMM...
i went Tree's hse today...
den saw sum1 i haven seen for quite long...
tad sum1...made me feel painful eva since today...
dosent make sense but its okie...
my heart started to hurt aft tad...
i was probably naive...
bud i will get ova it sooner or later...
cos tad sum1 wont b here animore aft tis year
n i wud prob nv get a chance to see sum1 animore mayb...
OHH NOO...
oh shit i hav geog essay to complete n pass up tml
and its a MUST...
cos indirectly i lied tad i did it...
so annoying...
my brain's dead byes

2006-08-01T07:10:00.000-07:00

heyhey...
today i was terribly sleepy in class...
lessons were extremely boring...
i couldn help dozing off...
sucks..bla bla bla...
the entire day was boring...
den had social studies mock exam aft skl...
oh my goodness...
the SBQ was so difficult...
n i din finish it...
den the SEQ oso din finish...
i can imagine my marks=S
okie lyk hu cares...
now i jus came back frm tuition at 10pm...
im so hungry...
bud if i eat...
will grow fat??
cos its late at night...
im so sleepy...
n i hav 3 bloody geog essays to do by tml's lesson...
wad the shit...
okie im going to do sumting...
good night=)

2006-07-31T06:32:00.000-07:00

assembly was in hall...
omg it was scary...
tad joseph was walking all ova e hall
den suddenli came to sec4 side...
n nxt moment she was directly infront of me!?
bud facing oth direction...
she din see me! so relieved...
den went back 2 class...
er den i went crazy wif crop agn...
and jan too... tad spastic head=)
AT THE LAST 2 PERIODS...
CME...oh finalli...aft 3 PERIODS of chemistry wif mrs teo...
it was horrible...
den adrain chan was our cme teacher...
oh cos i was bz giving out chem ws...
den abit messy...
so i was at e back of e class...
den he said sth...
den i asked him to shut up=X
okie i din realised i said quite loudly...
HAHAHAHA
bud he din hear...onli those in less den 1m arnd me...
hahaha...
den we went library 2 do work...
sum how we played catchin there...
so dumb...
n i was tad pathetic victim trying to run 4 her life...
to avoid being strangled...
tot aft enterin library n sat down...
was safe at last...
bud sum shit knew...
i literately got strangled till my head rolled...
hehehehe
tml crop gets it...cos she's my partner=D
hahaahaha...
OH NO...
tell myself how doomed i am...
there's social studies mock exam tml=S
n im not halfway thru the memorizing...
i wish to hav a computer brain...
how to memorize evryting lar?!
in a night??
die die die...
nonono
i am stephanielim=)
so i'll make it...
its so lame lar...nvm=)

2006-06-30T07:15:00.000-07:00

wad a sad day...
realli veri depressing and tormenting...
i wnt 4 tjc audition today...
din realised their coach was my previous coach...
den i was so scared to play...
cos i havent played for mnths...
so i played so horribly...
i wasn accepted in their tennis...
how sad can tis be lar...
i jus couldnt take it...
how cud i do tis...
why did he recognise me at first...
he cud hav done so aft i played or sumting...
den i wont b so nervous
i was wondering how he recognised me...
n still rmb andre lim...
so odd...
aniwae...
i tink coach roistant...
howeva his name is spelt...
wont giv me another chance or chances ba...
i wished i cud hav more chances...
realli...
n i wish i cud regain my strength n ability to play tennis agn...
haix...
tis evening...
was one of the saddest days aft skl reopened so far...
no one can understand how impt tad was to me

2006-06-15T06:03:00.000-07:00

i hav to ren...
i cannot make my final decision now
its oni the beginning of my conclusion
tym is needed...
thou there's hardly tym left
thou i feel veri sad abt it...
bud tis shud be my test on endurance
tis might turn out...
to be short term for us or mayb long term
all depending on us oni...
if we breakdown easily...
it will b the end of us

2006-06-12T06:06:00.000-07:00

my goods days are numbered alreadi...
if oni i could...
i wud...
change tym back to when i was...
4 yrs old

2006-06-10T04:49:00.000-07:00

wo xin li hen nan guo...=(

2006-06-07T05:02:00.000-07:00

feeling stress at home...
going out wud be nice...
cos it'll let me feel more relaxed
seeing u...
even thou im stressed or sad...
i feel relaxed n comfortable...
least i dont feel tense...
n i feel happier...
im saying words frm my heart...
hmm...
tis is my first and best one wif u...
no matter wad...
i wont eva forget u...
i cant do it...
i jus hav a special feeling for u...
tad jus cant disappear...
hmmm
its plain happiness i hav wif u...
nth else...
tola uoy evol yllaer i=)

2006-06-06T05:07:00.000-07:00

i feel drowed wif sadness...
even thou i try desperately to feel happy

2006-06-06T00:38:00.000-07:00

shall i tell say how much i hate dem
especially the mother...
least i hav the courtesy to reply...
unlyk u n ur attitude towards me onli...
its obvious u treat ppl u dislyk tis way...
n i obviously dislike u lyk shit...
ur onli selfish to me...
treat the rest nicely except me huh
its 100% obvious
i dislyk u lyk shit...
in fact i hate tis mother...
u see tings at the wrong tym...
u understand tings the wrong way...
im not a genius wad
WAD TO DO
u dont hav to say...
"joel din study n got 13 points"
its obvious wad ur implying to me
jus shut the fcking mouth up
let me tell u tis...
U JUS RUIN MY MOOD TO STUDY INSTEAD OF HELPING
get tis clear u heartless bitch...
tad ur making me feel more terrible den eva
i wan u to disappear frm my sight